Chaos Can Bring a Miracle

I can never be succinct in my writing. Like, I have this prompt someone wrote in a meme and I thought "Hey, this involves a character I actually like but a lot of people act like he doesn't exist" and I thought it would only be a few parts and mostly simple. Then my imagination is like "THROW EVERYTHING AT THE WALL" and now I have what could be considered a character arc that has some slight rising action and I have to come up with the falling action and satisfying conclusion to this too if I want to feel proud enough to post the finished product and blaaaaaargh! It was supposed to be short, brain, what are you doing to me?!

It happens every time. I think, "Oh yeah, this fic will be short and somewhat easy to write." Then my brain is like "LOLNOPE! Why not try this idea, or this one, or oh! this is kind of cool too, maybe you could fit it in somewhere" and the sensible part of me is sitting back and whining "But I'll likely edit half this out anyway! Stop it!"

... and when I plan stories, I make inspiration mixes. Half the time, the songs have next to no connection to the actual story but help put me in the right mood for certain scenes. The best example I think for this is that my playlist has Andrea Gibson's "Class" in it. Nobody in the story has a life similar to the ones talked about in the poem, but the mood from how she reads it is fantastic.

Anyway, I'm just making a note that "Black and White People" by Matchbox 20 should be added to that inspiration mix, since it comes very close to how I write Yosuke in this particular story.

(And while I'm thinking of it, with this much work put into a Hero/Yosuke story, I should write some long Chie/Yukiko and Hero/Rise stories to give some more of my favourite pairings love.)

Your mind is like a tangle of Christmas lights and your emotions are a ribbon quickly fraying at the edges.

I wish I could write you effectively.

I am really wanting to order some books right now, but I'm not sure if that would be a good idea. Money isn't really an issue, since the order only comes to about $33 for three books and I have a lot saved up, but I'm trying to keep my buying urges down. If I don't, I'll definitely turn into a shopaholic.

The books (in case anyone's interested) are: The Little Prince, since I've heard so much praise for it but have never read it myself; Japan Through the Looking Glass, to help me better understand the culture of that country, both for fanfics and other projects that would make a book like this come in handy; and the Penguin Dictionary of Symbols, easily the nerdiest of my wanted purchases, and the heftiest, since this book has over a thousand pages. I love analyzing symbols in media, and I think this could also help me from not creating Pop Symbolism in my own stories.


Chances are I'll cave by the end of today, but I'm going to try not to!

I also downloaded a program called OmmWriter today. I'd seen a friend on Tumblr talking about it awhile back and decided to check it out. The website will give any information you need on the program, and the best thing is it's cheap! I'm using the free version right now, but the update only requires a payment of $4.11 and anything higher than that would be given by the customer just wanting to show their support. So far I can't get over how adorable this is, the ambient sounds are great. I'm really hoping this will help stop my bad procrastination habits when it comes to writing.